The Less Glamorous Side of Spiritual Awakening, Manifestation And Oneness
I am writing this after a huge emotional storm I experienced over one weekend, and if you‘re reading this, chances are high survived it 🥲 And writing (or any other form of creativity/art) is such a beautiful gift — it can turn anything into gold.
When you come across manifestation and, more profoundly, the remembrance of your true nature as the Divine, it’s inevitable to also encounter intense experiences. These might manifest in your energy field or body as deep fears, pain, and suppressed emotions rising to the surface, halleluja — could be easily forgotten that this isn‘t just your “stuff”, it is collective, and your human avatar is simply a part of it.
Consider this: you’re not the only one who carries common survival fears. When you face those fears or go within to explore your inner world to uncover who you truly are, you might experience them on a much grander scale, on a higher multitude. Why? Because such fears — like the fear of running out of money or homelessness, which ultimately link to survival and death — are collective. And if you interact with other human beings, you’re constantly exposed to their energies and conditioning, too…
I’m just sharing from my experience, which makes it real, at least for me. I invite you to reflect on what these concepts and aspects I share mean to you. I’ve had days where it felt like an exorcism — and I swear to God, I wasn‘t on psychedelics (except the plant medicine we’re all tripping on, money 🌚). I experienced the deepest fears of humanity in my little body, and it felt as if I were carrying the weight of the world.
Perhaps, stepping into the state of the wish fulfilled doesn‘t necessarily mean life turns all of a sudden into rainbows, unicorns, and butterflies — even though this would be a kawaii video game. It might instead bring up everything that doesn’t align with that state of being Love, your true essence —all the lies, all the suppressed emotions, and thoughts you once accepted as truth and mistakenly identified with.
Even from a logical perspective, it makes total sense. Anything that doesn‘t „fit“ the wish fulfilled, anything that isn‘t love, has to rise to the surface — just like smoke leaving a chimney — to be acknowledged, felt, processed, and released or transmuted. This is where many people get confused — they expect to snap their fingers and make all their trauma, accumulated personal and collective baggage (remember, we are all One) poof, vanish💨. This is where some of us fall into the manifestation trap and try to forcefully visualize, or affirm over the natural process that is happening — one of the main reasons why studying and understanding the spiritual journey is so crucial. Sweethearts, as long as we have a body that stores memories and trauma, we have to be patient and honor the time and space required for our systems to unwind. Recalibration to what you have introduced your system to — through your imagination (let it be feeling into the vibe of something, meditation, visualization, whatever imaginal act you choose). I also like calling our imagination the sixth sense which helps to integrate it into our lives and not something we use in the hope of making something happen but to experience what is already available. The experience you gift yourself in your imagination is the destination, let it melt and become one with your physical experience — one and connected.
If you desire to have support and learn how to hold space for these challenging emotions, discomfort, and stories so that you can navigate them from a place of Love and embody your True Nature:
This is what „dying to the old man“ means: dying to everything that you are not, to everything that isn‘t yours but what has felt so familiar for so long that it created this illusionary, false sense of safety. Familiarity is so often mistaken for comfort and safety due to the similar sensations, but they are not the same.
Awakening to your True Nature — which is Love — means loving yourself through the process. Even if you tend to forget all of that, you can come back to remembering and choose love over fear over and over again until it becomes second nature. With time and practice, anything that isn‘t love will be naturally alchemized through your very presence.
This is my wish for the collective: that everyone remembers who they are so that the world can return to its natural balance.
(And controlling governments — sorry not sorry, but they are part of this game, too — will collapse on their own. Why? Because they were never built on love, only fear and the illusion of separation. When there is only love and interconnectedness, what is left to control and manipulate by using fear as a strategy for artificial power? As they are us pushed out, tune into how it would feel to have governments rooted in love, fostering empowerment and co-living for all beings. Just like the days when humans lived as tribes, and our systems still long for this because we are designed for this way of living because it embodies Oneness and Love (use them as synonyms if you like).
