How To Balance Mental Health & Manifestation
I have been through both extremes. When I started my recovery from anorexia, I relied purely on my logical mind and scrolled through the world wide web searching for the “perfect recovery method” (anorexia‘s wet dream: being able to eat a sh*tton and staying skinny = underweight or the minimum healthy weight according to BMI).
I wanted to find evidence so that I could feel relieved knowing I would end up just fine (finding someone who went through recovery who had food freedom and fit into the modern world’s beauty standard) while facing fear foods (crossing the forbidden, black list), eating in abundance and taking a break from exercise. I did that because deep down, I just couldn‘t trust myself at all - how was I supposed to after working against my nature and becoming a pro at ignoring my body’s signals?
Eventually, slowly but surely I realized there is no such thing as the “perfect recovery” because even though we are One, each of us came here to have their individual human experience with their own method and way of living — completely different for each and every one of us.
Years have gone by and I eventually reached a relatively healthy relationship with food and exercise — at least food no longer controls me, I ditched the scale and haven‘t counted a single calorie in years and stayed away from compulsive exercise (except for the little accident from the beginning of 2023 in Sweet Korea but thanks to the years of inner work prior, I was able to stabilize my body and food habits quite quickly - in a matter of months).
During that time, I discovered Yoga and meditation (I started meditation when I was 17, now meditating for over one decade —wow, time is such an illusion because it still feels like maybe some months) and years later, around 2018 when I was 4-5 years into recovery, a friend told me about the Law of Attraction and I got curious, so I ordered the book „The Secret“ — a pretty classical way of getting into spirituality, or better say of getting trapped in the first red flags of New Age Spirituality: toxic positivity („stay high vibe and think only positively“) and still see myself as a little, separate human.
About 2 years later, around March 2020, I stumbled upon a YouTube video of someone talking about Neville Goddard‘s teachings & the Law of Assumption. Again, I was fascinated and shook by “your imagination creates reality” & „imagination is the only reality“ and researched every corner of the online space — a similar trap as I described above. At first, it felt liberating but after inhaling tons of information followed by a set of rules, should’s, and spiritual bypassing including the misconception of the Shadow world (my spiritual trauma: thinking, everything in the 3D is dead), I found myself in one of my biggest “existential crisis” ever…
Long story short: after suffering, mental breakdowns, manifestation and investment traps, pain, turmoil, and stress…I found myself again, in a state of unlearning and developing my own way of going about my mental health, manifestation, and living in general. Now I‘m here, learning and integrating that spirituality doesn‘t need to take a toll on your (mental) health and vice versa. I believe that past suffering which cracked me open led me to this — creating a safe space where mental health meets spirituality, where vulnerability and feeling your feelings label-free becomes your superpower, where embracing your humanness & celebrating just being alive/existing without taking it for granted is the most spiritual thing & best manifestation technique ever. This, my friend, is where we are going to move…
This is one of the reasons why I have created the e-book “Un(b)lock You 2.0” (yep, there has been a baby version before but the finetuned one comes with extras), to help you tap into your desires and learn to integrate emotions, discomfort and pain skillfully instead of being overwhelmed by them and the best thing: it’s completely free for you!
My key learnings (click to read it on le Hipstergram):
